Dear Cora: Eight Months.
Dear Cora,
Eight months. Almost as long as I was pregnant with you. It seems like just yesterday that you were born, but also a million years ago all at the same time.
Time stopped when you died and sped up at the same time. Time is something that spins by at a ferocious pace and meanders along like a falling leaf all at the same time.
Eight months. I wonder if you’d be crawling. Probably so. I miss you. I wish you were here changing the world beside me. I wish people were cooing and laughing at you. You were making the world a better place with your beauty and love here.
You’re still making the world a better place. You are. Every month, we remember you and do something good. We’ve invited people to join and to wear pink as a reminder. The pink is like a knot around your finger. I hope, and truly do believe; people put on the pink and throughout the day look down with a smile and pass on that smile to someone else with an act of kindness.
This month, we’re donating to a food bank. I drove all the way there today to realize they’d moved across town, so the actual donation will wait until Monday.
It’s not much. Probably just enough food to feed a family for one day. Right now, it’s what we could do.
But, nine months ago, I wouldn’t have ever scrounged my cupboards and donated. So, it’s huge at the same time. It’s the little things. Realizing it doesn’t take a lot of money or time to be kind.
Life is a whirlwind. I hope one day to step back and really be able to look at the way you’re making a difference. Wear Pink for Cora spills over to the rest of the month. I get sent stories almost every day of how you helped someone realize they too can make a difference.
I never did get to watch you crawl. But, I do get to watch you move mountains through the trickles of good and kindness you inspire every day.
I love you so much.
Love,
Mom
P.S. I want to show you this brochure I made. Hopefully, it will help to make sure no other mommy and baby find out about congenital heart defects from the coroner either!
